Glimpse on Twilight

Call me late bloomer..

I just watched twilight this day with some nice fellas, it was a hasty one since we didn’t arrange it as our hang out time. I was wondering while wandering why everybody talked about it as if they were involved in that movie and they were keeping say that Edward Cullen is the most gorgeous guy in this earth. At that moment, I thought that Edward was an ordinary one (I saw him on poster) thus what’s on earth with him and what d’hell people think about?..

At the first time I observed him, as a cold bloody man that’s actually including weirdo. He’s not really gorgeous at all I guess, he just has a well –shaped body. Then I was keep watching on the movie, yea everybody was right about this movie. This is totally awesome and fascinated, this movie teach me the importance of being trusted. After Bella known the truth she kept it only for herself. I guess I’m gonna be fully insane if I know someone’s secret just like Edward’s. However, Bella kept that huge secret and sees Edward as an ordinary one. I believe what you believe that see someone as him/herself is hard as much as releasing someone that u love. I know all the answer why Cullen family protect Bella meanwhile she just about to get along with the entire member of Cullen. Her loyalty to keep Cullen’s secret and her indulgent are the precious thing. That’s why they struggle for her as a family.

Edward also did the gentlest actions that a man should do for defending his love. He was tracking his feeling for a girl. Start from his curiosity of one girl that he couldn’t call for her thought. Flying her to the sky, hang on the highest tree, and accompany her with lullaby probably the most romantic trials. It seems that every sentence that came out from Edward always spinning on my head “You’re like my favorite brand of heroin”. Now I recognize that Edward is not gorgeous as a result of his perfect physical look nevertheless the things that made he fabulous is what he has done to Bella. It seems that everything that he has done providing his charm and complete the whole tenderness. One last sentence for describing Edward “WHAT A MAN”…

I cannot resist that I rummage around for my Edward wannabe..haha

Independence bring me down..

O my gosh..i cannot believe I start this page unpleasantly. It should be a nice one to start a blog however I just want to write what I feel right now. People always say that a melancholy is someone who always plays a drama in his/her life. And here I am 65% melancholy; 20% sanguine; 15% phlegmatic. Now I really feel distress with all of the things surrounding me. I keep wondering why everybody so maddening. Yea, there are some reasons why I feel so sick of it. It starts on Friday evening nevertheless it should be a nice day because I was spending dinner with my friends. Suddenly that curse feeling come and take away my bliss swiftly. I was believe that it was only a temporary one afterward I ask my friend to drop me home. And he answered that he already gave his ride to someone else. Please note that I have no feeling on him and that’s not my reason to feel objectionable.
Ok I’ll tell you about the history. Since long time ago, make it clear, one year ago I attended an inauguration of my organization. I was a member of committee among my friends thus I have more responsible to everyone. I gave my effort till fullest limit that I can give. I sacrificed myself, my time, and other materials. I was neglecting what time that I was in my home, just for having a lil leisure time. Can you imagine a young girl went back home alone in the middle of the night? And I bet that all over the world already know the criminal in Indonesia. Ordinarily neither I nor my friend was afraid of something bad that could happen. Nevertheless no one ever considered how far my home is. I was thinking that I can ride my motorcycle and went back home safely no matter what time it was. I felt wholehearted for all of the things that I have sacrificed. Even so there’s no one who appreciate my job, and it seems that I’m the person who never do something for my society. All of my efforts are blown away.
The head always kept promise to make everybody went back home safely without any exception. Based on fact the promise was totally a big LIE and it has been lying till now.
My point is from the beginning of our pledge to take care each other until now that is totally BULLSHEAT.